Stolen from :sage-of-winds:

INFO
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.

FAMILY/HOME LIFE
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[] I have a child.
[] I've lost a child.

SCHOOL/WORK
[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.

EMBARRASSMENT
[] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[] I've had my pants rip in public.

HEALTH
[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I've had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

TRAVEL
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[x] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.

EXPERIENCES
[] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.

RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I'm single.
[] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship. (never forget, never forgive)

SEXUALITY
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[~] I am a cuddler. (at times)
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger

HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[] I've cheated on a test.
[] I've run a red light.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.

DRUGS/ALCOHOL
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I've passed out from drinking.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[] I've smoked weed
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[] I've eaten shrooms.
[] I've popped E.
[x] I've inhaled Nitrous. (for surgery)
[] I've done hard drugs.
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed. (i try not to, but it's hard)
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[] I've woken up crying.

DEATH
[] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide. ( for about 5 secs, then berated myself for half an hour)
[] I've attempted suicide.
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.

MATERIALISM
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x]I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.

RANDOM
[] I can sing well.
[] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[] I open up to others easily. (i hate people. it's a rule)
[] I watch the news.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[] I love being neat.
[] I love Spam
[] I've copied over 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well. (desserts and pancakes)
[] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[] I've worn pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[] I love white chocolate
[] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[] I'm good at remembering names.
[] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. ( i have an idea, but it's not a very good one)

[x] All of those are answered honestly ( as honestly as i can)

so i've been lazy and haven't really done any devart stuff lately.

but i got a Wii and i am interested in finding people to be my friends, so i can become better at Brawl and for some items in Metroid Prime 3: Corruption so post your codes here or note them to me and we'll meet up sometime (virtually of course)

Here's mine:

Friend code: 6126 5659 1082 2629

Brawl code: 0817-3618-5503

let's see what happens!

So...


I don't know anymore...

Things just can't seem to go my way at all...

and then Christmas came along and things were good

for about three hours...

Then all Hell broke loose and Heaven tried to stop them:
and Heaven got it's ass whooped, but in a horrid sort of way

Completely expected, but unlikely and "Death to Phill" type of ass whooping.

It acutally sucked less then I thought it did, at the time, and now it just keeps getting worse.

To tell the story would involve changing too many names because I'm actually going to be nice, if i ever get around to said story.

So, lesson learned: my social life - always = SUCK!


But other than that things are going to be fine I think.

If I ever can get straight answers out of people, and if said people don't forget what they are supposed to tell me.

I'm starting to like certain things more and more, for example:
1) Fight Club, book and movie.
2) Having ways of getting information from people that don't want to tell me
3) Being very goods at logical thinking
4) good movie quotes (watch for them)

and a couple of others, but those are the important ones.
Other things that I'm starting to hate more and more
1) Humanity and its failings
2) my friend John (She is Jack's smirking revenge.)
3) inconsistencies between stories (I am Jack's complete lack of surprise.)
4) my failure to produce most probable result from a simple equation
5) My social life (I am Jack's broken heart.)
6) People who can't give straight answers ( I am Jack's inflamed sense of rejection.)
7) sleepless nights (I couldn't sleep. With insomnia, nothing's real. Everything is far away. Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy. )

I have a plan, it is wonderfully simple. So simple, in fact I do not think that I can actually complete said plan. I think it would hurt to much. The plan being: No fear, no distractions. The ability to let that which does not matter...truly slide.

give and take, it's really more of a state of mind, and there's the problem. my state of mind is good where it is, this change would screw a lot of things up. and I don't think i like where it would lead. and I believe that everyone who reads this post, go and find Fight Club, movie or book, and give it a good look, two or three times, and just think about it, think about the true message, get past the crazy antics in the book, and think what it is really saying.

This is the best I can do:
"You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else. You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. We are the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world. The things you own, they end up owning you. Stop trying to control everything and just let go. First you have to give up, first you have to know... not fear... know... that someday you're gonna die. "

just think about it, drop me a comment or two, but seriously, find a good friend, and sit them down, and give them a good rant, just let it out; all your troubles, your hates, go connect with someone you really want to, and see what happens, this does not have to be a strict guy/girl thing: Guys, get some friends together and just talk about shit that bothers you. Same for girls, just talk about shit that really pisses you off.

Find someone, that when you talk to them: They really listen, instead of just waiting for their turn to talk.

It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything. This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time.

So i thought this up as i was starting to fill out the files on my RPG characters. it might work well...

First off list 5 people whom you will be studying:
1. Cyrus Vaal
2. Leon Hawklight
3. Vincent Vaal
4. Salais Trueshot
5. Nikki Vaal

then answer these questions in a sentence or two: (complete thoughts)


1. What is 1 after and why is 1 after it? will it backfire on 1?

Cyrus is after the perfection of his shadowy arts, because early in his life he was kidnapped and stored in a room with a permanent darkness spell cast in it, leaving him with a deep seated fear of the dark. By mastering his shadow powers he hopes to conquer this fear, which he will, but he will forever dispise those in the light.

2. If 4 and 5 met at a bar what would happen? Would the meeting be random at all or prearranged? If prearranged, by who and for what purpose?

In all odds it would be prearranged by either Salais, Nikki or Vince, depending on wether it is a checkpoint stop, an information trade, or a mission briefing.

3. Who truely understands 3, to all ends and interpretations of the word?

No one, truthfully, but the closest one is his wife, Nikki. She comes close, but even she does not know why he does what he does. He has a plan, but she is afraid to know what the plan will entail for him, and what his final end is.

4. What are the character's specialties? list each individually and provide short background on how/why.

Cyrus is a Shadowcaster, he takes shadows and warps them to achieve his ends. technically the opposite of spell casting, because they comes from opposite sides of power. (magic drawns positive material, shadow draws negative material)
Leon is a Monk, drawn to the perfection of his body and mind, and the ability to overcome any hardship. He was bullied at a young age, before his guardian died and he was sent to a monastery. he never knew his real parents.
Vincent is an Ace, meaning that he is one of the most powerful beings in the multiverse, second to none. He gained this power by making many deals, legit and shady, and always having one goal: to beat everyone at everything.
Salais is Vincent's longest male childhood friend, having been together for nearly a millenium now, he has grown strong and cunning as a Ranger, an archer specializing in covert operations. He is classified at a Jack level and is attempting to move up to Queen.
Nikki is a Queen level Pyrokinetisist, using her psionic powers to aid her husband for all of eternity. She chose this, being that she accepted his proposal knowing full well how long she would last. Her biggest secret is that she is, since she was a child, afraid of Vincent. She does not know why, but she knows that he will not survive as himself.

5. would 1 take 3 camping or fishing?

Camping, Cyrus dislikes seafood and Vincent would cheat at fishing anyways

6. if 5 stole something from 2, would 4 go on a blind rampage to retrive it?

Not at all, it was probably Salais's idea to steal it in the first place.

7. If they had to, what teaching jobs would they (all 5) take? would they need additional schooling or could they pass already?

Cyrus would teach philosophy, he has all of his credentials and has a doctorate in Philosophy and Theology
Leon would teach Physical Education, and be a coach for as many sports as possible, while also teaching yoga and such-like.
Vincent would teach pretty much everything, under different names and appearences, of course.
Salais would teach Strategy, Tactics and Special Operations in the Armed Forces.
Nikki, being a complete gearhead, would teach all of the shop and automotive classes

8. if 3 needed to accomplish a goal and needed help, would s/he choose 1 or 4?

Vincent would most definately choose Salais, he is more powerful and has a better reputation.

9. What would 1 most likely be arrested for? Would any of the others help/hinder the arrest?

Cyrus would be arrested for assault and battery or murder. If he needed help, he wouldn't ask for it, but Salais would either break him out, or just kill him to protect the secrets in his head.

10. If you had one favor from each of these characters, what would you have them do?

Cyrus would teach me how to shadowcast
Leon would teach me how to use insight to defend myself
Vincent would give me a power level of King
Salais would teach me how to use a bow to the maximum ability
Nikki would teach me either how to be a pyrokinetisist or everything about automobiles

11. Out of the 5 who would be the Leader? Natural or Picked?


Obviously Vincent, not only is he the most powerful, but the rest already work for him and respect his decisions greatly.



I'll get to this either tommorrow or when i get back or something i just needed to write them down before i forgot, feel free to do it yourselves

*update* finally got around to the damn thing, going to try to extend it or something, i feel like i could make up more random questions or something

is making my life miserable again. the stupid thing is acting up and i can never stay on for longer than about 5 mins or so. but i think i fixed it (hooray for reset buttons) and i should see an improvement soon.

i have been absent for the past... insane amount of time because i... haven't really cared. much. school is coming around again so that should help me get in gear and get through the 4,500 or so deviations that i should get around to looking at.

hopefully something will do something interesting for a journal and then i'll steal it or i'll make something random from all of the ones that i've stolen already. probably both.

i'm having trouble with my RAID driver and related stuff, so if anyone thinks that they know what's up with that and can help me out with it, i'd be very appreciative.

other than that my summer has been very boring and monotonous(sp?)

i did finally beat RE:4 on Pro mode (what a bitch) so i have technically completed the entire game, other than mercenaries, which is ever more of a bitch because, well, it's hard and it has a time limit.

My DnD group is finally going into something massive, i'm still vigilant for people but, the group is already at 5 (though only 2 show consistently).

i should probably post some sort of horrible rendition of The "Family". but i might not get around to it for a while, my art skills are not the best nor do i have time to really sit down and write an entire backstory on the whole group, though i probably could, driving to Illinois and all. i wish i had a laptop... i think i'll steal my dad's (which is actually my sister's old one), for the trip. upload a bunch of temporary stuff and all.

so when i get back in 2 weeks or so, i might have a long story or two to update/add. Hopefully a detailed look into everyone's head for people.

i should get the others onto devart, it's a nice way to talk...